Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Today is such a bad day.
Hah!
Teacher went through maths wksht.
All wrong.
=.=
Got back result.
A.maths result.
Failed.
The only girl of coz.
Well...
Kinda expected it already.
Thought i was prepared for it,
But i ain't.
Expected myself to fail.
But i didn't want that.
Somewhere deep in my heart,
I didn't really expect me to ACTUALLY fail it too.
My feelings were so contradicting.
So...
Saw the results, damn disappointed.
I mean.
If i get D7 it's okay right?
But why do i hafta get E8.
It's so ugly.
O:
Nbms, 8 is a lucky number. ^^
But if i think again.
At least i didn't get F9 or failed english like others.
Though it's still kinda sad.
To be one of the ONLY four that failed it.
Eh...
Went down for recess.
Have no idea why the hell i did that.
Shudn't have done that.
Ate porridge.
Den added shit in.
Extra.
Shit.
Eat until i wanna die.
It's so disgusting.
...
Okays.
So i didn't finish all and yea,
I know i waste food so don't bother telling me that.
_|_
It just pisses me off.
I mean.
EVERYONE GOT DAYS WHERE THEIR APPETITE IS NOT AT THE BEST CONDITION RIGHT?!
Fucker.
And if one is in a bad mood,
One can't really take jokes so yea.
Real sorry bout that.
After that.
English.
Forget bring my fucken files.
Yaya, sorry bout that.
I have poor memory.
Well, at least got people accompany me.
And we were forgiven. O:
Though the teacher was also in a damn bad mood when she came in.
=.=
I've tucked the files in my bag alr. No worries!
If there are no files in my bag tmr,
I bet theres a hole in my bag and yea, time to change it. (:
Received SS result.
Total-ed up my humanities.
C5
Fuck it.
And all my frens got like, As?!
=.=
If i get back my results today, it means that i've done badly.
(:
Lucky theres only 2.
Really.
My results sucks.
It makes me wonder how i get into this class.
But
Like the saying, you reap what you sow.
I got Suckky results coz,
I didn't really study for them!
I'm really stupid.
stupid.
FUCKEN STUPID.
FUCKER.
Everyone says that too.
But it's just common test 1.
Don't worry, just buck up for the others!
Everyone says THAT too.
=.=
Ya, i know. It's ONLY CT1.
But people just wanna be depressed for awhile.
Not only for that, for some other things too,
That has been stressing up in their body for quite some time.
They don't really want others to know.
It's just that they can't control.
So, sorry.
Know ure trying to be nice but please.
I rather you just stay beside me.
Rather than saying some things to 敷衍我
and afterwards running away to god knows where.
Mouth got 4 ulcers.
Eh.
Hurts damn lot.
=.=
Today still got CCA wtf.
Wanna take MC.
Can't.
Fuck this school.
Fuck this world.
O:
After CCA can't believe the LOCK for the door was gone.
Thanks to some seniors.
They left it in the cupboards
Deeep deeeeep in the cupboards where we store our guzheng.
Thats what yun said.
Okays.
WIN.
FUCKER.
WASTE OUR TIME.
=.=
Wasted around 30mins.
30mins is precious okay?!
Wasted so much time, so much money today.
I'm feeling so spent...
So shagged...
So.. contradicting.
It's feeling like the end of the world.
I wanna cry.
Anw, I was wondering.
Does anyone stand at the door and wave wave wave to your parents,
shout byebye~
Until they went in the lift?
Or until they turn or smth?
Well, i have been doing that for years.
And i just found out recently,
That maybe i'm the only weirdo in this whole world,
doing that.
They work nightshift.
My mom is just helping my dad.
Everytime around 9 liddat they go off.
And I'll say byebye~ the moment they stepped out of the house.
Stop whatever i'm doing.
And stand at the door.
Watching them.
I've no idea why but i feel happy just by doing that.
And i've no idea why,
But the lift was always so slow.
So i'll stand by the door for like 2-3 minutes,
without walking away,
turning away,
just looking at them.
If i don't do that everytime,
before they went off to work,
I'll feel uneasy.
I can't explain why though.
Sometimes i'll even go to the window,
Watch them get in the car,
Watch as the car goes down the road,
Till i can't see them anymore, before continuing what i was doing.
Why?
I just love them so much.
So much that i have no idea how to express it.
And why did i just notice that now?
So weird.
Today is such a weird day,
Full of contradicting feelings.
So shagged,
Sleeping now.
Good night.
Sweet dreams, sleep tight.
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